Wow, a year isn't a long time at all, is it?
With Inktober starting up tomorrow, I thought it was time to share some more realistic thoughts on that subject rather than the "pie in the sky" dream that I had last year. Back then, I was very excited about it - the challenge, the excuse to draw whatever I wanted, and the new tools I had acquired to throw at the task. I managed to get 21 drawings in, before realizing that the drain on me was more than I might like to admit. Trying to keep pace with working a full day already drawing, taking care of business, scheduled life drawing sessions and fighting depression and anxiety, I had taken on more than I could realistically handle, at least, without mental breaks and time to recharge. A lot of last year's Inktober projects became a lot more than I expected them to be. What began as a 30 min to an hour thing, morphed into a 6 hour session, with raised hopes and expectations, and then the sense of "perfection" : that is the lingering desire to fuss over this and that with the hopes of it being perfect, when the reality is that it won't be.
That being said, it was a good run, I felt, and the favourites and notes I've had in the intervening months have been very reassuring, leaving me wanting to contribute to Inktober 2017. So I will be, but I think on my own terms. There will likely be a lot more sloppy sketches, rather than serious, serious inking attempts. I know that sounds rather lazy, but I'm just being realistic. Underpromise and over deliver, being good business advice.
I've spent a good chunk of time working on my graphic novel "Amaxeno" which has taught me a lot in terms of inking, so I hope to put that to good use, but as I've learned, its just as easy to get worse and it is to get better. A stroke in the wrong direction, a change in your thought process that you didn't notice and the light is suddenly in the "wrong" direction, etc.
All I can say is, I'm going to put my pen onto paper and see what happens.
Listening to: Prophets of Rage, Frontline Assembly "Airmech"
Reading: Judge Dredd "America", "Hunters of Dune"
Playing: Battlefield 1, Secret of Mana
Eating: Fuul, Juicy Fruit gum
Drinking: McDonald's Coffee